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Friday, January 27, 2012

All this negativity bottled up inside.


To some certain friends that I'm allegedly 'shafting'... People change as they grow older.  Along with that comes new priorities and a clearer view of the world.  In the best case scenario, friends grow together in these areas, but that is not always the case.  Often, we grow apart.  The relationship is no longer the positive, uplifting force it used to be, yet we still hold out hope that things will get better.
Well, I’m done.  Ever so often, I have to do a sort of ‘cleaning house’ where I remove myself from friendships that have become toxic or aren’t mutually beneficial, and I feel that time has come again.  I have no time for negativity or pettiness, and life is too short to keep giving time to people who drain my energy.  Sometimes you just have to let go.



To Jazlan; honestly though, I’m just hoping another opportunity would come by. I really don’t want to be angry anymore, but I do need that closure. I want all of this to just be over. 





Friday, January 20, 2012

Sunday, January 15, 2012

JA

Why did I have to fall so hopelessly in love with you? I wish I could just move the fuck on and stop feeling this heartache every time these memories surface, knowing that I’ll never find someone as amazing as you and never feel as happy as I did when I was with you.


I sit back and watch time & time again, my friends & family find a lover, a new best friend. And right now i tell myself that i’m young and carefree, and that I do not mind.

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Everyone should read this. *Copy pasted from a friend's blog.

Checking out at the supermarket recently, the young cashier suggested I should bring my own bags because plastic bags weren’t good for the environment. I apologized and explained, “We didn’t have this green thing back in my earlier days“.
The clerk responded, “That’s our problem today. Your generation did not care enough to save our environment for future generations“.
She was right about one thing–our generation didn’t have the green thing in “Our” day. So what did we have back then? After some reflection and soul-searching on “Our” day, here’s what I remembered we did have….
Back then, we returned milk bottles, pop bottles and beer bottles to the store. The store sent them back to the plant to be washed and sterilized and refilled, so it could use the same bottles repeatedly. So they really were recycled. But we didn’t have the green thing back in our day.
We walked up stairs, because we didn’t have an escalator in every store and office building. We walked to the grocery store and didn’t climb into a 300-horsepower machine every time we had to go two blocks. But she was right. We didn’t have the green thing in our day.
Back then, we washed the baby’s nappies because we didn’t have the throw-away kind. We dried clothes on a line, not in an energy gobbling machine burning up 240 volts — wind and solar power really did dry our clothes back in our early days. Kids got hand-me-down clothes from their brothers or sisters, not always brand-new clothing. But that young lady is right. We didn’t have the green thing back in our day.
Back then, we had one TV, or radio, in the house — not a TV in every room. And the TV had a small screen the size of a handkerchief (remember them?), not a screen the size of Wales. In the kitchen, we blended & stirred by hand because we didn’t have electric machines to do everything for us. When we packaged a fragile item to send in the mail, we used wadded up old newspapers to cushion it, not Styrofoam or plastic bubble wrap.
Back then, we didn’t fire up an engine and burn petrol just to cut the lawn. We used a push mower that ran on human power. We exercised by working so we didn’t need to go to a health club to run on treadmills that operate on electricity. But she’s right. We didn’t have the green thing back then.
We drank from a water fountain when we were thirsty instead of using a cup or a plastic bottle every time we had a drink of water. We refilled writing pens with ink instead of buying a new pen, and we replaced the razor blades in a razor instead of throwing away the whole razor just because the blade got dull. But we didn’t have the green thing back then.
Back then, people took the bus, and kids rode their bikes to school or walked instead of turning their mums into a 24-hour taxi service. We had one electrical outlet in a room, not an entire bank of sockets to power a dozen appliances. And we didn’t need a computerized gadget to receive a signal beamed from satellites 2,000 miles out in space in order to find the nearest pizza joint.
But isn’t it sad the current generation laments how wasteful we old folks were just because we didn’t have the green thing back then?
Please post this on your Facebook profile so another selfish old person who needs a lesson in conservation from a smarty-pants young person can add to this

It's impossible to pretend

One of the worst moment in one’s life a person can encounter is that fleeting moment when you are between asleep and awake. That moment after a bad fight, a horrible loss—the moment when you forget for a moment the truth and then it hits you right smack in the face. You wake up and you remember that you aren’t fine. You get up and you walk around almost as if you aren’t there. You get up just to get through with it but all you want to do is to go someplace where you can’t be found because you want to run away. You run away from confronting your problems, from people who have hurt you. You run away from yourself because you know that you can get through it but right now, you just choose not to.

One moment you’re on top of the world. You have everything you want and more. You have people you hold on to, you attach yourself to so deeply because as much as you don’t show it to the world, you need them, you need their strength. Because each and everyone of us, we have our own monsters, our own weaknesses that we try so hard to fight and veer away from. And these people help us, they understand us, they accept us for who we are—imperfect, faulty, unworthy. And you do everything that you can, in your power, even if it hurts you, even if it hurts them, because you want them to stay. You need them more than they need you.
But nothing is constant. And people leave. People love you less. People hurt you. Maybe you should let them go. And you are left with a question. 




How are you?
I’m fine.





Thursday, January 12, 2012

Day 6: Any words of wisdom/advice for anyone?

To my loved ones, may you never experience the pain I felt and don't trust so easily.

To my haters, here's some wisdom; the world would be a better place without you.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Day 5: Describe an adventure you had this year.

An adventure? In 2011? Frankly speaking, I have no regrets.

I guess going on a date with a guy I barely know was an adventure, as I have never done that before. That guy said shall remain anonymous because hah, malu k. :p Anyway I had a great time he was really sweet and stuff... :)

He picked me from St Co at about 10 in the morning when I was visiting Malaysia for summer break and then brought me to the place where we first met. A cafe. It was a hilarious experience as the staff knew us and it just rekindled memories of when we first met each other. It was a totally random meeting that blossomed into a friendship and soon I had a crush on him but anyway... haha. So yeah we were eating and talking, he was smoking and flipping through my yearbook and making fun of people ( in a non-mean way) and then he sent me back to school as I had a lunch date with my girlfriends.

About 2pm he texted me asking if I was still at lunch and I replied yes. So he was like, "Mok tgk movie sik? (wanna watch a movie?)" And I told my girlfriends and they all knew I liked him and told me to just go for it. So I replied yes and he was like, "Gimme 10 mins and I'll pick you up" So he came and when I entered his car, he said he already called ahead the cinema and we were watching Harry Potter at 4pm.. So then we had about 2 hours to kill -_____-||| LOL

So he drove around town finding a place to chill but we didn't go to a cafe or anything cause I didn't want to meet anyone I know, or it'll be really awkward. So he thought of going to the beach, cause who the hell would go to the beach at 2pm in the afternoon on a weekday.... Okay us. Anyway we hanged out there for about 2 hours and we just talked about stupid stuffs. I remember we even talked about politics! So random.. haha :) Then we just sat in silence awhile.. while he smokes. LOL I generally don't like smokers but idk he looked cute k HAHAHA so moving on...

so then we went to the cinemas and watched the movie and he said it was his first time watching a Harry Potter movie aww O:) and I kept spoiling the movie for him until he took his hand and covered my mouth saying "Shushh ktk! Kmk mok tgk movie tok!!! (shh you I wanna watch the movie) eeeeeee dont spoil it!" Hahaha and he was laughing but he held my hand throughout the whole movie and that was stuck in my mind the whole time heeeeee... :p

So yeah after the movie we drove around some more and he sent me home... It was an adventure I guess, because I've never done that sort of thing and I guess it was really sweet of him. We didn't end up being a couple but I remember that day as it was a first of it's kind for me..

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One moment can last a lifetime.

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Here we go again..

Oh hi Aimi, hi.

Bash me again la... okay... I don't know if people read your blog so your rants might not matter to people lol. I only knew about it because my friend googled my name and came across your blog. Oh by the way thank you for calling me "Princess Qyira", when can I have my crown?






"Okay okay...so.u realy want me to write ur name in my blog huh??very well Princess Qyira...My PLEASURE...okay..u were the one who said if im gonna talk bout u..have the guts to write ur name???THERE U ARE!! but u're the one who didnt write my name...

HAH...wow..im so thankful that i have many friends here...and what did they said to me was u're one psycopath...MOVE ON!!! okay..u may think im childish..well, I AM...and u cant change that..and also that i heard bout ur height..what r u??A monkey???how can u be shorter than Daus??i realy cant imagine or believe that u're older than me but pffftt..only by a year..

So WHAT..i dont care..realy man...u realy cant get over Oppa??"



Haih.. have you forgotten how to type properly? Seriously I give up lah wanna argue again.. And really I can't get over your 'oppa' (ew gross) pisses you off? Lol why do you give a fuck , cause you obviously can't get over him as well! Awwww :) I feel so sorry for you... but whatever I probably will never meet you anyway. Okay okay I get it, you have awesome friends but oops did anyone tell you how much people talk behind your back too? HA.HA.HA. I guess you just can't trust people eh? Just goes to show what people's opinion of you are... 


Rumors are carried by haters, spread by fools, and accepted by idiots. 
It's ridiculous. 



Day 4: Something you’ve learned this year.


I learned that I shouldn't kill myself over things that obviously don't matter.
I learned to not give a fuck about what people say about me.
I learned to know who to trust.


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